don't drink, don't smoke, what do you do?

Things that make a Monday totally suck:

- spending the weekend trying to help your kitties adjust to their new home ... without you.
- driving back to your soon to be sold home and looking up at the bedroom window and expecting to see your kitties waiting for you and then feeling your heart fall when you realize they are not there.
- walking into the house to find teeny tiny ants all over the kitchen floor and living room floor.
- killing a slew of ants and apologizing to them while you do it.
- going to the doctors and getting your metabolism and thyroid tested and finding out that your daily metabolic rate - although a superb SAT score - is a really, REALLY crappy score for a metabolism.
- talking to the dietitian and realizing that in order to increase said metabolism, and prevent any future problems, you will have to change your life dramatically.
- realizing that you hate food and are totally overwhelmed by the concept of going to the grocery store and trying to cook a fucking meal.
- getting to work and finding out that your co-worker's mother passed away unexpectedly.
- trying to pour yourself a cup of coffee and spilling it all over the counter because you can't see a damn thing through all the tears.

I need a do over on this day in a major way. And it's only 1:30 PM.